Tuesday, September 1, 2009

He's left the nest

Most of the summer I've been gearing up for the day when Landon would pull out of the driveway, wave goodbye and head west to BYU. I've been crying about it for a year. So when it finally happened at 4:00am on Saturday morning, I was surprised to find that I wasn't even sad! He has wanted this for so long, how could I be anything but happy for him? I KNOW that he wasn't a bit sad to be leaving me! I spent the last 6 months trying to cram every bit of wisdom and forgotten lessons down his throat. Every day I thought of yet another life lesson that he needed before he went out on his own. There was the Eagle Scout award to finish, the Duty to God award to earn, the independent study Trig class he needed to finish. The packing to do, the applications and forms and scholarship info needing to be processed. I was honestly every teenage boy's worst nightmare. But he got it all done. Eagle Scout..check. Duty to God...check. Entrance to college...check. Scholarship...check. Some of these things may have been done at the last possible second, but he did them. And I take FULL CREDIT! So now he is gone. I have shed only a few tears. Mostly I'm just so proud of him and happy that this chapter of his life has finally begun. I just try as hard as I can to not think about the chapter of my life that has just ended.

His Hands by Annalise Kunzelman
His hands
Are my brother's hands;
The Lord's hands,
Doing the Lords's work.
Like Dad's hands
They are strong,
They help, and
Work, and
Play with
Friends and with
I see them writing
Beautiful compositions,
And arrangements.
Creating something
Of his own.
They move, talk,
And explain things
To me.
Using signs and gestures.
His hands
Are music hands;
Pounding, flying,
Beating, tapping
Always, all the time.
Soon, his hands
Will be leaving hands.
They will wave in the air,
And go away
To somewhere new.
But for now
His hands are here.
His hands
Are my brother's hands.


Monica said...

I feel your pain! I know exactly how you feel! It is so hard! You have to be so proud! What an accomplished young man and mother. I am very impressed!!!
I always love to see a boy in his scout uniform! What an accomplishment, especially to go to BYU at such a young age.
Love this post---you have to be so PROUD!!! I need to call you and figure out what would be a good time to come visit you!

meeshw said...

Ahhh...I just sent McKay off...and I had the opposite experience leading up to his departure as far as the tears go...I was really looking forward for him to leave because I knew he would have a great time and then the morning I took him I woke up to tears...but I feel the same way you feel now...so excited for their future...I am loving the photos of your son...he is going to have a wonderful time at the Y...memories :)
You have done good Katie!

On a side note...it looks like we were having the same thoughts on the same day...we both posted on same day about our sons :)
Love to you.

RicksAustins said...

Katie, Harley just texted me and said she saw Landon riding his unicycle on campus today!! She got a big kick, and smile out of it! He is making a name for himself.
Love your guts!

Neuffj said...

It seems odd for me to think you even have children this old. I found you on Jarries blog. I haven't seen you in what seems to be ages. Well about 5 1/2 years. It's good to catch up. Blogging is a great way to do that.

Saam said...

I got choked up reading this but Annalise's poem put me over the edge and made me cry like a baby!

Landon said...

Mom, thank you so much for posting Annalise's poem. I agree with Aunt Saam, it makes me cry almost every time I read it. And even more than that, thank you for being such a good and helpful Mom. I really appreciate that most of the time :) Tell Annalise that I'm really glad she wrote that incredible poem for me.